The Not So Adventurous Life

Just recently at one of my family's hair raya gatherings,
My eldest uncle kept bombarding me with endless questions.

'Why are back home?'
'Why are you not travelling?'
'Have you been to Korea?'
'What about Hokkaido?'
'Not even Okinawa?'
'Why do you keep coming back so often?'
'Why don't you travel?
'Don't you have any friends to travel with?'

At the end of the conversation I was left speechless.
Wanting to give the excuse of money, but it didn't come out of my mouth.

I have never been that adventerous . I excuse myself by saying that I am not physically that fit, I have too many allergies, and when I come
to think about it, yes maybe I don't have anyone to travel with.

In Japan, you usually travel with the people in the same prefecture as you as it is much easier. I have no one here with me.

Sure I have Cookie, but sometimes when your traveling with a guy people get suspicious and I'm just too tired to explain to them.

After I think back about all these things, a little voice came into my head and was telling me that

I'm just making excuses.

I look at my friends who travel alone, backpacking here and there, and alhamdullilah they survived just fine. Case of money? You get the same scholarship as they do!

So what is it that is holding me back.

Am I just a big fat chicken?
Afraid of the world?