looking back

sesungguhnya realiti itu tidak indah;

there are some sayings that say you should never look back.

because thinking about the past only stops you from moving forward.

some people think that when you look back, you learn from past mistakes; hence able to make sure you don't repeat them.

so which should it be.

honestly speaking, i've forced myself many times to not look back.

because when i do it cuts open healed wounds.

but if my wounds are healed, why should it still hurt?

maybe they aren't.

how long is this supposed to take?

i hate running away from things, but apparently i'm good at it.

and it has become like a natural reflex.

whenever hurt comes around, just run.

i don't want to know what happened.

i don't want to know why it happened.

so i run.

and i never look back.

so i'm thinking, am i really healed from my past wounds?