shoot me

sesungguhnya realiti itu tidak indah;

the suspense is killing.

i wish someone could just take a gun and shoot me already.

roughly 15 days before i go to BTN.

or if i rephrase that it means that i have 20 days left to know which University i'm headed to.

and i don't know why it's bothering me so much!

i should just wait patiently.

it's either Kagawa or Utsunomiya so no need to worry.

but then i start having these weird dreams where i'm thrown ALL the way to CHIBA!

not that i'm saying it's a bad thing but, it's messing with my head.

i've always wanted to go to Kagawa.

it has the course i want to study, it's cute and small (okay that's besides the fact)

it's in the middle so not too up or not too down

the town of Takamatsu is also not too old fashioned.

i don't know about the cost of living but i'm sure it will okay.

the downside is just that there's no Senpai there.

i'll be alone.

but i thought about this countless of times before i chose Kagawa.

sure life will be slightly tougher.

but we have to learn to survive right?

the cool thing about Utsunomiya is that it has my Senpai.

and even Pah and Fahima applied there.

and suddenly i'm thinking having Pah together with me would be awesome.

so there's just the difference.

GAAAAAAHHHH *BANG*