as we go on

sesungguhnya realiti itu tidak indah;

so everything is settled.

we got our offer letters.

we got out money.

visas are all being processed.

now all that is left is to go.

i am truly excited.

but of course my heart feels heavy to leave behind my family.

especially my mum that is.

as the youngest i was able to watch my sisters progressions in life, and how my mum deals with it. i may have been just a little girl not knowing much, but sometimes our hearts can interpret things beyond our logical thinking capacity.

i know i need to write this.

but maybe not here.

somewhere mama can find it.

so she knows i do care.

kokoro no nayamu