say you like me

sesungguhnya realiti itu tidak indah;

happy new year :))

in times i've noticed how i'm always stuck at this same position.

where there's no one around to tell how i feel.

even if i did they wouldn't understand anyway so what's the point.

you keep it in,

it starts to eat you up so better to let it out.

but how? a question i'm still trying to find the answer to.

yes forgive my ramblings, am i going anywhere with this?

is it even an option if i say that i'm tired of being nice?

that i'm tired of TRYING

i'm tired of CARING

i'm tired of SMILING at your face and telling you

'oh i'm fine, yes just fine'

but as a natural reflex even when i don't want to care eventually i'll care anyway.

so how do i cut these chains that bind me to a world leading to things that just tick me off.

yes i smile. i have that wide grin on my face.

come to think of it i'm just lost.

i just felt like i needed to write this.

she's the girl that no one ever knows